Tao Lin: i will learn how to love a person and then i will teach you and then we will know

seen from a great enough distance i cannot be seen
i feel this as an extremely distinct sensation
of feeling like shit; the effect of small children
is that they use declarative sentences and then look at your face
with an expression that says, ‘you will never do enough
for the people you love’; i can feel the universe expanding
and it feels like no one is trying hard enough
the effect of this is an extremely shitty sensation
of being the only person alive; i have been alone for a very long time
it will take an extreme person to make me feel less alone
the effect of being alone for a very long time
is that i have been thinking very hard and learning about existence, mortality
loneliness, people, society, and love; i am afraid
that i am not learning fast enough; i can feel the universe expanding
and it feels like no one has ever tried hard enough; when i cried in your room
it was the effect of an extremely distinct sensation that ‘i am the only person
alive,’ ‘i have not learned enough,’ and ‘i can feel the universe
expanding and making things further apart
and it feels like a declarative sentence
whose message is that we must try harder’

Tao Lin: when I leave this place

the distances i have described in my poems
will expand to find me
but they will never find me

when my head touches your head
your face hits my face at the speed of light

holding it a little

i want to cross an enormous distance with you
to learn the wisdom of lonely animals with low IQs
i want to remember you as a river
with a flower on it

i’ll be right back

Tao Lin: Some Of My Happiest Moments In Life Occur On AOL Instant Messenger

i will create a new category

on my instant messenger buddy list

i will call it

'people i like who don't like me back'

and i will move your screen name into that group

and i will invite you to my house and show you

and you will say, 'if i didn't like you why did i come over'

and you will look at my face

and i will have an honest answer for your question

i will tell you that you came over to be polite

and after a while you will go home

and you won't call

and i won't either

and after awhile i won't like you anymore

and after awhile we'll forget each other

and after awhile you will be beautiful and alone inside of your coffin

and i'll be cold and alone inside of my coffin